New outlook

I am the kind of person who likes to be in control of things...money, household stuff, shopping, decorating, my life in general. I also love surprises, though...parties, special notes and cards, gifts, etc. So how do I feel about not knowing when Miss Chloe is coming? It's driving me crazy, well, at least until yesterday, when someone on Babycenter said, "no woman has ever been pregnant forever" and then Bob reminded that even though I want to have Chloe NOW, maybe I should enjoy these last few days. This may be my last pregnancy so I'm doing as my wonderful hubby suggested...enjoying my down time and just relaxing before our whole world changes again. I've been rubbing my belly every chance I get and sometimes using lotion. I sat and watched Oprah the whole way through for the first time in years and even cried tears of happiness for the guest. I did some baking with Katelyn and didn't get frustrated or mad when she made a mess. I took Katelyn outside and just watched her play and giggle as she ran through the snow and occasionally threw the snow all over herself. I made a Bendaroo grasshopper and had fun doing it.

If Chloe decides to enter the world tonight, great! If she decides to wait a few more days, I'm okay with that, too. This is definitely one area I cannot control so I'm going to enjoy waiting for my 'little' surprise the best I can.